Today was an amazingly difficult and intense day, as I knew it would be. We started the day with a presentation from Peterson Toscano about the ex-gay movement and what it means for us and what it means for the people involved in it. It was very informative and I feel like I was able to learn a lot from it. During lunch we worked on our presentations and I like where it is going and I am excited to see the final product. After lunch, we heard Peterson speak again and we were blessed with having Phil Lawson speak. Phil Lawson has worked extensively in the Civil Rights movement and his brother helped train the young people who participated in the lunch counter sit-in, in methods of non-violence tactics. He spoke to us for a while and was an incredibly powerful person to hear speak and I wish that I could have had more time to sit and chat with him about his story.
After having him speak, we had the training session that I have been dreading since the first Training in January. It was the tactics of Non-Violence session. In this session we practiced engaging the hurtful and anger filled conversations that will be happening towards us at these universities and communities. We paired off and took turns yelling profanities and incredibly hurtful things to our partner for 30 seconds and then we switched positions. At first glance it seems weird that we would practice yelling these things at people we have come to love, however it was interesting to be in that position. However, when you are in this position, you say things that you did not even realize that you were even capable of saying, and it helps put into perspective the mind set that the people who are yelling at us are in. Even if a conversation starts out calm and nice, it can quickly become a thing that you get caught up in and do not even realize what you are saying. It was an incredible emotionally time for everyone and seeing these people that I love being shouted at was incredibly hurtful. After this, we covered what to do during physical violence and it was very uncomfortable, however a very necessary thing to have.
We have another day of non-violence training tomorrow and while it is very uncomfortable, I know that is very necessary.
Love,
Adam